Sunday, August 2, 2009

Sunday, August 23, 2009. Twelfth Sunday after Pentecost. Proper 16

© 2009 by Louie Crew


Today’s Lections

The Collect

Grant, O merciful God, that your Church, being gathered together in unity by your Holy Spirit, may show forth your power among all peoples, to the glory of your Name; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen..


1 Kings 8:(1, 6, 10-11), 22-30, 41-43

I confess to being a divided self regarding my response to beautiful churches. I have spent much of my life seeking them out and visiting them. I love their infinite variety -- whether the Roman Parthenon remade to function as a Christian temple or a roadside Baptist ivy-covered wooden structure down a dirt road in rural Alabama. I love the magnificent and the simple.

My own parish is a gorgeous Upjohn building, dedicated in 1848, Grace Church in Newark -- from the start intended as a center for Anglo-Catholic worship. Bishop George Washington Doane titled his dedicatory sermon “The Beauty of Holiness.” When you walk inside, you understand why.

A dozen years ago when members of the vestry identified what we like the most about the parish, predictably people said the diverse membership, the music, the windows, the nave….. and almost everyone independently said, “the silences.” Lectors for the first two lessons typically wait silently in place from 30-60 seconds after finishing a reading.

See all of God’s real estate in the Diocese of Newark.

I am uneasy with calling churches or temples, as Solomon does, a House of God. Christianity is at real risk if we behave as if we can keep God locked up in a building or on an altar. God is much too busy to waste times on thrones. Often the architectural gift we claim to give to God is really our gift to ourselves, to make us feel better, to appease God, to make ourselves look better than those who don't have the resources to build such a building.....

I live in a diocese where many of the older church have turned ugly on the outside with a century or more of harsh weather, and some are ugly inside. Their current residents (I speak of the people; not God) struggle to keep the lights on; the high ceilings suck up much of the heat intended to make parishioners comfortable. Only the wealthiest can afford to keep up properly a home built in the style common for homes when these Houses of God were built, and many of the wealthy prefer to build their homes from scratch, something that expresses who they are and the relationship they wish to maintain with the current environment, not the environment of 150 years ago.

Frequently I watch Korean Christians move into neighborhoods, rent a house, and set up as church. In time they leave that house and rent or buy a larger house, and after they have more resources, they sometimes buy up a lovely but vacant church that once was “God’s house” for the Presbyterian god or an Episcopalian god.

In spite of his enthusiasm on dedicating the new house he has built for God, Solomon is wise enough to know the truth, “Even heaven and the highest heaven cannot contain you, much less this house that I have built!”

That house was destroyed in 70 AD, almost two millennia ago; yet the Jewish religion in which it was built continues today.

Voluntary societies in churches often have an easier job of rolling with the exigencies of time and place. The less property they have, the easier it is for them to adapt to new conditions, to move to a new place.

Before Solomon built the temple in Jerusalem, the center of worship for the Jews was the Ark of the Covenant, a simple structure easily ported from place to place on a cart.

Richer and finer is often not better.





Psalm 84

For one day in your courts is better than a thousand in my own room, *
and to stand at the threshold of the house of my God
than to dwell in the tents of the wicked.


The places where we gather together become holier still by our gathering there. Old English hal survives in three words in modern English, hale or ’healthy’ as in “hale and hearty young person”; whole as in “complete; of one piece“; and holy.

All three are still the same; we cannot have one of these without the other two. There is no health without integrating all of one’s body. There is no “wholeness” if the body or the spirit is sick. Holiness is impaired when a person is incomplete.

The same may be said for religious community. Worship spaces bring us together. In them we reconcile. In them we experience our wholeness.

Ubuntu was the theme of the 76th General Convention this past July, meeting in Anaheim, California. Ubuntu is a South African concept given much currency by the work of Archbishop Desmond Tutu and his American disciple, The Rev. Dr. Michael Battle. Ubuntu may be encapsulated in a few phrases: “You are, therefore I am.” Note the communal emphasis, which contrasts sharply with individual emphasis of philosopher Descartes' “I think; therefore I am.”

Ubuntu emphasizes “I in you; you in me.”

Corporate worship gives space for Ubuntu. But they are not the only places we can encounter the living God. We must not let their beauty distract us from seeing the holiness in creation and in one another all around us.

Ephesians 6:10-20

This passage has been important sustenance for me in my ministry, especially when I have done battle to urge the church, the university, or the society to treat lgbt persons justly.

Among my papers is a collection that I purposely avoid, as it does not encourage my good spiritual health: it is a volume which I labeled Episcopal Snide -- a collection of hostile letters written to me by bishops through the years. Fortunately there have been few additions in the last decade, but the two decades before that yielded many. I grew to understand what Saint meant when he counseled, “For our struggle is not against enemies of blood and flesh, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers of this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.”

The military metaphor which he develops thereafter has grown a bit tedious for me through the years -- the belt, the helmet, the shield, the shoes…….

I join Saint in asking you who read these reflections, “Pray also for me, so that when I speak, a message may be given to me to make known with boldness the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it boldly, as I must speak.” Amen

John 6:56-69

Archbishop of Canterbury Rowan Williams recently claimed that the Episcopal Church has not made our case to the rest of the Communion to justify our blessing of lgbt persons and our openness to consent to the consecration of otherwise qualified lgbt priests as bishops.

Over the last three decades we have produced stacks of theological analysis trying to explain our actions, including To Set Our Hope in Christ written at his request and submitted three years ago to the Anglican Consultative Council meeting in Nottingham, England.

Perhaps what the Archbishop means to say is that he does not agree with our case, not that we have not made our case. He himself made “our case” when he was Archbishop of Wales. At that time he was a forceful advocate for lgbt persons. Perhaps what he means to say is that many others in the Communion do not agree with his case or ours, not that we have not made our case.

Some who listened to Jesus in the episode John records today did not feel that he had made his case either. I confess to understanding him only because I know the ending of the story, that most in audience did not know. He had not yet held the first Maundy Thursday Mass. He had not yet been crucified and buried. He had not yet been resurrected. St. John is writing long after those events, but describing an audience that took place before those events. Some of them left Jesus because they did not understand. I wonder how many came back when more of the truth was fully revealed to them.

I wonder how many of the schismatics in the Anglican Communion will return.

"Do you also wish to go away?" Jesus asks each of us in this text.

Like Simon Peter, I answer him, "Lord, to whom can we go? You have the words of eternal life. We have come to believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."




See also

Sunday, August 16, 2009. Eleventh Sunday after Pentecost. Proper 15

© 2009 by Louie Crew


Today’s Lections

The Collect

Almighty God, you have given your only Son to be for us a sacrifice for sin, and also an example of godly life: Give us grace to receive thankfully the fruits of his redeeming work, and to follow daily in the blessed steps of his most holy life; through Jesus Christ your Son our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.


1 Kings 2:10-12; 3:3-14

Solomon is hardly a little child at the time of his enthronement. His father David had reigned for 40 years, and Solomon was born early in David’s reign, as the child of David and Bathsheba.

Yet to God Solomon says, “I am only a little child” and then asks not for riches or for long life, but for wisdom to serve his people well.

Solomon tells God the Israelites are “so numerous they cannot be numbered or counted”; but surely that is not so. Solomon speaks in hyperbole to emphasize his vulnerability and his need for God’s assistance.

The text asserts that God is impressed with Solomon because he gives top priority to wisdom. God answers gives Solomon wisdom and gives him also the wealth and long life for which he had not asked.

The point is clear: If a new leader gives top priority to wisdom, then God will give the leader the wealth and long life not asked for.

The point is almost too clear: Are we to be impressed as God is with Solomon’s priorities? Or is Solomon fudging, saying what he believes will impress God and impress the people? Does he believe his own press releases?

Witness Solomon’s faithlessness later in his reign, when he worships other gods and turns from his fierce allegiance to Jehovah.

Later Solomon is said to have 700 wives and 300 concubines. I remember a 7th-grader giggling when we read that passage aloud in class in 1962.

“Carter, why are you giggling?” I asked.

“I was just imagining what a large bed he must have had, sir,” Carter replied.

Bishop John S. Spong has said that committing adultery takes on a new dimension when one has 700 wives and 300 concubines.


Psalm 111

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; *
those who act accordingly have a good understanding;
his praise endures for ever.


Many anthropologists point out that in religion people worship what they fear. Early on people worshiped fire or water or …. Many early religions worshiped the sun.

The psalmist here suggests that we begin to ‘get it’ when we realize that God is bigger and more powerful than we are. We should be afraid of God’s displeasure. Put more positively, we are wise when we try to please God.

Jesus told his disciples that he had shared with them everything that he knows about God, yet his report differs radically from the one in 1st Kings. Jesus describes God not as someone before whom we should cower in uncritical obeisance, but as an accessible friend.

Jesus spent much of his time among outcasts and was known for being a “friend of sinners.” Sinners rarely consider ourselves included “in the assembly of the upright, in the congregation.”

Current conflicts in the Anglican Communion mirror these contrary understandings regarding who can lay claim to being the people of God. Archbishop of Canterbury Rowan Williams suggests that in embracing lgbt persons -- considering their unions to be holy, even consenting for some of them to be bishops -- the Episcopal Church has set itself apart from the Communion. The archbishop suggests that perhaps the Communion should have two tiers for membership -- one privileged and able to make the rules, the other tolerated but not allowed to vote in the assembly of the upright.

So in the new "two tiered communion" which water fountains are we to drink from?" asked the Rev. Susan Russell, president of Integrity, an organization of lgbt Episcoplians.

To which I answered: "Don't bother with The Archbishop of Canterbury. He cares not a fig about Samaritan wells. He's more concerned with our sin than with our thirst.

"Ask the Other Rabbi."



Ephesians 5:15-20

For most of my life, I have lived a fairly simple and sober life, attending church, working diligently as a writer and a professor. I am frightfully middleclass, and even polish Mother’s silver service before dinner parties. The only two times I ever got drunk were in graduate school in 1958-59. I found the two occasions decidedly unpleasant and was never drawn to drunkenness again.

Likewise, I have eschewed mind-altering drugs, less because I think them wrong and more because I prefer to choose my risks carefully. I would much rather go to jail because of my love for my husband than for violating drug laws. Also, I want my mind to be as alert as possible at all times: that’s part of being vibrantly alive for me, and drugs work at cross purposes to being alert.

Perhaps more than the lives of many in my generation, my life closely resembles the life described in the epistle today -- one of the shortest of readings in the lectionary:

Be careful then how you live, not as unwise people but as wise, making the most of the time, because the days are evil. So do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is. Do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery; but be filled with the Spirit, as you sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs among yourselves, singing and making melody to the Lord in your hearts, giving thanks to God the Father at all times and for everything in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.


Yet I am uncomfortable with Saint’s description when it becomes prescription. It seems to counterstate Jesus’ injunction that we be “in the world but not of the world.” Saint describes a huddle that is disengaged from the world, not vitally engaging it. When I have seen folks self-consciously in such a huddle, they have often appeared sanctimonious and self-righteous, not generous and joyful.

These short verses are killers of evangelism. If we are going to make them our starting point in drawing people to the faith, we might just as well add, “And guys, if you’re not cut yet, you’re going to have to do that too, to be on God’s safe side.”

Here’s to a four-fold “No thanks.”

John 6:51-58

We’re not supposed to say so, or even think so, but the Mass is both vaguely cannibalistic and mildly erotic. We eat Jesus. We drink his blood.

Mahatma Gandhi had real problems with that language because it suggests cannibalism. He had graver problems still with Christianity, which, for a time he considered joining. He told missionary E. Stanley Jones, “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.”

In marriage, we are taught, the two become one flesh. Often at the Mass the celebrant says, “May you become one with the one whom you receive.”

Are you blood kin of Jesus? Does his blood flow in your veins? Are you flesh of his flesh?

Metaphorically? Literally? A bit of both?

If it’s “just a metaphor,” how strong is that just?

[W]hoever eats me will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like that which your ancestors ate, and they died. But the one who eats this bread will live forever."


Small wonder that as Anglicans we refer to these as “holy mysteries.”



See also

August 9, 2009. Tenth Sunday after Pentecost. Proper 14

© 2009 by Louie Crew


Today’s Lections

The Collect

Grant to us, Lord, we pray, the spirit to think and do always those things that are right, that we, who cannot exist without you, may by you be enabled to live according to your will; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.


I pray this collect because I believe I need God’s help in living according to God’s will. I need all the help I can get from any source.

But I am uncomfortable even suggesting that God or anyone else should take the responsibility that is mine.

If Jesus is my friend rather than my slave master, surely Jesus does not want any of his friends caught in unhealthy dependency. Sometimes it’s too easy to say, “I’m sorry. Forgive me.” It is more challenging not to behave in ways that require forgiveness.

2 Samuel 18:5-9, 15, 31-33

What a grim way to die! Absalom’s fate makes me glad I am bald and too old to ride on horseback.

The narrative captures the tension well. David orders his soldiers to do battle with the rebels his son Absalom leads, yet urges them, “Deal gently for my sake with the young man Absalom.”

They did not deal gently with him, Joab’s armor-bearers struck down Absalom from the tree where he was entangled by his hair and then killed him. The Cushite tells David that he hopes the same fate will come to all who rebel against David.

The anguished father wails to his dead son, “O my son Absalom, my son, my son Absalom! Would I had died instead of you, O Absalom, my son, my son!"

It’s hard enough to have your son die before you do, but harder still to be the instrument of the son’s death while the son is trying to bring death to you.

Nathan the prophet earlier warned David that his own house would rise up against him as penalty for his adultery with Bathsheba and his murder of Uriah her husband.

What went round has come round.
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Psalm 130

“With God there is plenteous redemption.”

Even the Old Testament, wherein God seems much more austere than in the New Testament, proclaims God’s redemption is not in short supply.

I am amazed by the judgmentalism of the religious right in the Anglican Communion. On Standfirminthefaith.com, one of their cyber strongholds, over 140 recently mocked me unmercifully because of a public letter I had published. That we have difference of opinion is fair enough. I would not want to be part of a church that did not welcome the challenges of disagreement, but at Standfirminthefaith.com disagreement quickly yields to character assassination. Click here to see the series.

Many were furious that in my public letter I had stressed, “I have been baptized!” Martin Luther used that statement almost like a mantra when he was depressed. It became a bedrock of assurance when the church attacked him for his reforms. Those who object to my use of it proclaimed that such assurance is not available to me. My baptism cannot be of no worth because, they insisted, “You must repent.” They never asked whether I do repent, but presumed to damn me to hell because obviously I have come to conclusions different from their own.

I do repent daily, for ‘sins known and unknown,’ I pointed out, but they did not blink in their fury.

How sad it must be to live in fear that God may not really have set your sins as far as the east is from the west. How sad to live uncertain whether you will actually be damned to hell for something that you do not believe to be a sin. Perhaps that fear is what drives some to be more exercised by someone else’s sins than their own?

God’s is not stingy, nor vengeful. God‘s redemption is “plenteous.”

My soul waits for the LORD,
more than watchmen for the morning, *
more than watchmen for the morning.

O Israel, wait for the LORD, *
for with the LORD there is mercy;


Micah begins his short list of all that is required of us with, “Love mercy.” It’s easier to behave mercifully than to love mercy: it takes a character change, a new life in the spirit, if one is actually to love mercy.

Ephesians 4:25-5:2

In my papers there is a thick folder labeled “Episcopal Snide.” In it I have collected many abusive letters sent to me by bishops, especially in the first decade or so after I founded Integrity in 1974. Some items in the collection are so over-the-top as to be comical, as when Bishop James P. Dees, then Presiding Bishop of the Anglican Orthodox Church, accused Ernest and me of causing a tornado



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Yet, Dees was for most people a certifiable nut. He was an ardent segregationist who left the Episcopal Church with a smattering of followers who agreed with his view that it was not Orthodox to allow black people go to church with white people. He also had a congregation in South Africa during apartheid. The Macon Herald, a newspaper of the John Birch Society, quoted Dees. Dees was one of the more 'prominent' members of the Society. At its peek during the period of desegregation the Herald had a circulation of over 100,000 people all over the South.

It wasn’t pleasant to know that that many people, including many of our neighbors, actually believed we had caused the tornado. When the respectable Atlanta Constitution called me about the accusation, I affirmed, “That’s queer power” -- my favorite line in all that I have written. After all, we had taken the steeple off the white Baptist Church, not off the black Baptist churches. A friend call to ask us to come kiss in her back garden so that her greens would grow; and our next-door neighbor, my dean, called to say that the college had a new opening in agriculture where my command over the weather might be most welcome.

If you don’t use your funny bone, it will atrophy! Humor can help us through tough times better than all the worry in the world.

Another snide letter was more sinister. It came in the early 1990s from a very fine bishop on Presiding Bishop Edmond Browning’s Council of Advice. The letter in no way accorded with the writer’s fine, and as far as I can tell, well deserved reputation.

Shortly after receiving the abusive letter, I was a dinner guest of a straight couple with whom I had collaborated on several projects in the Diocese of Newark. They were most upset when I characterized some of things in the letter, but their faces turned ashen when I identified the author of the letter.

“Louie,” one of them said, “____ is one of our dearest friends. He is the most supportive bishop we have ever had. We worked several years in his diocese.”

“I am so sorry I mentioned it,” I said, anxious not to disturb them further.

“No, Louie, we love you and value you; we also love and value our friend. I find it hard to believe he would have written such a letter. May we see it?” the spouse asked

“Of course,” I responded.

They were astounded a few days later when I showed them the letter with the bishop’s letterhead and signature. “This is not the guy we know and love,” they insisted, in great confusion.

“That’s why they call it a phobia,” I explained. “Evil has no specialized address except yours and mine. This irrational attack is the backroom of your friend’s life. He’s beating up on me because he feels no one of any importance will ever know or care about it.

“I grieve to be the one who showed the letter to you. Do not let it define your friend’s character. Most of us have such a room. With God’s help some keep it tiny, and some are disciplined enough never to go there. Love your friend, he needs your love as much as I do.”

Saint understood. He told Christians at Ephesus: “Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ has forgiven you.”

John 6:35, 41-51

It is difficult for me to read this passage because music in the back of my head almost drowns out the text with the Jeremy Young’s hymn “Eat this bread, drink this cup. Come to me and never be hungry.”




See also

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Sunday, August 2nd, Ninth Sunday after Pentecost. Proper 13

© 2009 by Louie Crew


Today’s Lections

The Collect

Let your continual mercy, O Lord, cleanse and defend your Church; and, because it cannot continue in safety without your help, protect and govern it always by your goodness; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.


2 Samuel 11:26-12:13a

In the epistle for today, Saint wants Christians to live in contrast to the those who are tossed about from doctrine to doctrine by people’s trickery: “But speaking the truth in love, we must grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ.”

In a very different context, Nathan the prophet “speaks the truth in love” to David -- harsh truth, saving truth: “You have despised me, and have taken the wife of Uriah the Hittite to be your wife. Thus says the LORD: I will raise up trouble against you from within your own house….”

David might have protested, “No, Lord, I have not despised you. I have just disobeyed you, and for that I am truly sorry.” Indeed, in the version Samuel gives, “David said to Nathan, ‘I have sinned against the LORD’”; but David does not deny that he has despised God. His behavior indicts him. We confirm out attitudes about others not by the love we profess but by the love we enact.

So many Christians tell me, “I have nothing personal against lgbts.” But their behavior belies the claim. They allow our taxes to pay for benefits accorded to their relationships but not accorded to ours. Most rarely stand up for us when their friends revile us, and persecute us, and say all manner of evil against us. They confirm their attitudes about us not by the love they might profess, but by the unloving behavior they enable and sometimes even participate in.

Neighbor

Our neighbor's a fag and bakes good cakes,
as parents are careful to warn children.
But he's just an undertaker,
so there ain't much way
he could harm no living thing.

He even married wunts,
to a widow schoolteacher;
but their maid let out
how the two lived in separate parts
of the house right from the beginning,
and the teacher, being sickly,
conveniently upped and died real soon.

I think those boys were wrong to beat him up
when he wrote the paper about Anita.
A little sugar in his gas tank
or a few discreet breathing calls
oughta been enough to keep him scared
to make another public move.

We ain't got nothin gainst queers, really,
long's they don't do nothin or tell nobody.
We never have let the Baptists
tell us how to run our lives.

-- Louie Crew, 1978

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    D. Smith and Ronald Mancoske. NY: Harrington Park Press, 1997.
    106-107
  2. Gruene Street March 1997. An online journal
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  3. Journal of Gay & Lesbian Social Services 7.3 (1997):
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  4. Parva Sed Apta 2007



Psalm 51:1-13

Two weeks ago, on the 7th Sunday after Pentecost, when we first encountered King David as a voyeur, I mentioned this psalm, noting

This dark side of David is familiar. After he had wronged Bathsheba, he sent her husband Uriah to the front lines so that he would have the best chance of being knocked off, as he was, and then in Psalm 51 David has the audacity to pray to God, “Against you and you only have I sinned”! What chutzpah! Ask Uriah's survivors.

Be very careful if your Confessor gives as your penance the recitation of the 51st Psalm. Don't apologize just to God; go and make things right with the one you have wronged.


I learned about asking for forgiveness the hard way. When I was in the first grade I stole a nickel from a fat girl who lived “on the other side of the tracks.”

My parents were horrified when I bragged about it. I had to fetch my own switch, but the worst part was afterwards: they put me in the 1939 black Chevrolet, drove to the other side of the tracks, and said I must confess what I had done, give back the nickel, and tell the girl that I was sorry. If they did not hear every word of it while sitting in the car, I would have to tell her again.

I have never stolen a thing since. I cannot claim any virtue for that fact: I don’t have anything to do with it: I have never even been tempted to steal again. "Thou shalt not steal" was dramatically inserted into my spiritual DNA.

Unfortunately my parents pedagogy did not have the same efficacy for many other temptations.

Ephesians 4:1-16

I founded Integrity in 1974 as a newsletter, titled Integrity: Gay Episcopal Forum. In the first issue, dated November 1974, I called for the creation of chapters and indicated that I would put subscribers in the same area in touch with one another. I noted that Ernest and I knew very few gay people and none that were gay Episcopalians in our tiny town Fort Valley, Georgia. [Later we met a few.]

By mid-November a priest named Tyndale and a layperson named Wycliffe each called from Chicago. Neither knew the other, and I put them in touch. With Reformation names like theirs, the Holy Spirit was saying something very powerful to me. Others called from Chicago and a group of 6-8 met in Wycliffe’s apartment to found Integrity’s first chapter in December. That chapter hosted our first national convention at the Cathedral Church of St. James in the summer of 1975.

In the early days of Integrity, my salary was especially low as a professor at a small state college for black students. I saved money by taking all trips on buses rather than airplanes, and I would routinely write a bishop or two en route to set up appointments to talk about the new ministry. I spent the summer of 1977 at the University of Texas as a fellow for the National Endowment for Humanities. When I returned to Fort Valley from Austin, I got off the bus in Jackson, where I had an appointment with Bishop Duncan Gray, Jr. He graciously received me and listened patiently to my story.

Late in conversation, he said, “I have made strong commitments to Civil Rights that I won’t dilute by being your public advocate; but your ministry is very important and I sense that God has a hand in it. I have long known that some good gay priests serve faithfully in the Diocese of Mississippi, and for the most part they have given me less trouble than some of their straight counterparts.

“But you need to know something about leadership,” he continued. “You need to hold yourself to a higher standard than you might feel necessary as a private citizen. You need to think of the consequences of your behavior on those whom you serve, not just of the consequences that you might be willing to bear for yourself.”

Bishop Gray was giving the same counsel that Saint gives to the Christians at Ephesus in today’s readings: “I therefore, the prisoner in the Lord, beg you to lead a life worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, making every effort to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.”

I can’t begin to describe the power of what this man -- a Bishop!, like me a Southerner! and a Christian -- was saying to me.

I asked him to bless me and knelt as he laid his hands on my head to ask God to be with me.

As gay male of my generation, I had been brought up to think of myself more lowly than it is healthy to think. I had easily thought of myself as a worm, as creature of little worth if those who liked me really knew who I am. Bishop Gray treated me as a joint heir of Jesus Christ. With that spiritual birthright, one wants to take responsibility.


John 6:24-35

Jesus understands the dynamics of the crowd. Many come along for the show, for the impressive miracles, for the lovely stained glass, for the miles of organ pipe well played…… ‘What sign are you going to give us? Are you going to do the manna trick that Moses did in the wilderness?’

‘Moses didn’t do it; God did,’ Jesus correct them.

And then in a rhetorical switch that John often uses, the tale shifts from narrative to metaphor. It does so in ways less disruptive than would have seemed appropriate in the synoptic Gospels. The synoptics were written nearer the time of Jesus. John is writing decades later, when the meaning of Jesus’ life, not just the narrative of its details, focuses attention.

Manna and real bread shift to spiritual sign and symbol: "I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty."

People don’t talk to each other like that. John has Jesus interpret himself in ways that the disciples did not understand until after Jesus’ death and resurrection. Rather than say about him, “Jesus is the bread of life,” John puts the words into Jesus’ mouth: “I am the bread of life.”

Rhetorically it works. Small wonder John was known as John the Evangelist.





See also

Friday, July 3, 2009

Sunday, July 26, 2009. The Eighth Sunday after Pentecost

© 2009 by Louie Crew


Today’s Lections

The Collect

O God, the protector of all who trust in you, without whom nothing is strong, nothing is holy: Increase and multiply upon us your mercy; that, with you as our ruler and guide, we may so pass through things temporal, that we lose not the things eternal; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen..


For several reasons we might call this “Greater Expectations Sunday”:


  • The disciples are sure they won’t have enough food to feed the five thousand people; Jesus knows that the amount the little boy gives will be multiplied to become enough.

  • Saint Paul tells Christians at Ephesus that they have not yet imagined what they are able to accomplish through God’s power working within them.

  • The psalmist sees, as does God, that all have “proved faithless; all alike have turned bad”; yet the psalmist has greater expectations “when the Lord restores the fortunes of his people.”

  • In the collect we ask God to multiply upon us his mercy.



2 Samuel 11:1-15

The Samuel reading alone counters the theme of ‘greater expectations.’ In it David goes from bad to worse, from peeping-Tom seducer of Bathsheba to a criminal who arranges for the almost certain death of her husband Uriah. In modern law King David could be charged and convicted of murder.

I reflected on David’s abuse of his power in my comments about the readings for last Sunday (see below). What I find particular refreshing about the biblical narrative is the clarity with which David’s misbehavior is reported. Indeed, the candor and the confession (Psalm 51) seem almost to get David off the hook. Whether we like it or not, he keeps his stature as Israel’s most beloved king. Undoubtedly his reign was a great improvement over Saul’s, and his kingdom enjoyed much prosperity -- always good for a politician’s reputation.

David was also blessed not to have 24-hour coverage on world TV. Compare President Clinton and his affair with Monica Lewinsky. There was significant delay between David’s deeds and the public knowledge of the deeds -- time for David to shore up his reputation and his popularity with the public.

Yet Samuel’s details mercilessly indict him, much as the stains on Monica’s dress indicted President Clinton. Uriah is too good even to cooperate with David’s plan to make Uriah appear to be the father of David's love child. Out of loyalty to the king, Uriah sleeps at the entrance of the king’s house rather than go home to sleep with his wife. David tries getting Uriah drunk, and that won’t work either. No Cialis. No Viagra. No erection lasting more than 3 hours.

David resorts to putting Uriah at the front lines so he cannot testify at any paternity hearing.

(Note that President Clinton did not try to get anyone murdered to cover for himself.)

Psalm 14

The psalm is a difficult to follow in places. The second half of the first verse has no clear relation to the first half, yet verse 2 does cohere with the first half of verse 1, “The fool has said in his heart, ‘There is no God’…[yet God,] the Lord looks down from heaven upon all of us….” The fool is a fool for not knowing about God’s attention to all the details of our lives.

The psalmist spends most of the psalm revealing the ubiquity of evil that God beholds. Yet in verse 4 the psalmist speaks of ‘my people’ as the victims of the evil-doers, not evil-doers themselves. The evil-doers tremble noticing that “the righteous” enjoy God’s protection. The psalmist concludes the evil-doers will not win out in the end, “when the Lord restores the fortunes of his people.”

James Russell Lowell put it this way:

Though the cause of evil prosper, yet the truth alone is strong;
Though her portion be the scaffold, and upon the throne be wrong;
Yet that scaffold sways the future, and behind the dim unknown,
Standeth God within the shadow, keeping watch above His own.



Ephesians 3:14-21

Saint Paul did not look to the culture around him to validate the Christian witness. Rather, he spoke of our “inner being” and prayed that Christians at Ephesus would be strengthened therein.

In a post-Christian age, Christians easily become despondent as we see our numbers decrease and the church’s influence diminish. We can learn much from those at Ephesus: they lived in a pre-Christian age. Numbers of Christians were very small until well into the fourth century, and they had very little influence on the culture around them.

Saint Paul asserts that God’s “power at work within us is able to accomplish abundantly far more than all we can ask or imagine.”

Jesus started with only 12, and one of those was a lemon. Why do we feel we must have mega-crowds to “accomplish abundantly”?

John 6:1-21

Charles R. Bell, long-time pastor of First Baptist Church in Pasadena, California, attended Howard College in Birmingham, Alabama with my father in the 1920s and came to his hometown Anniston for his first assignment. The parsonage was one block behind our house, and Charles and my father planted a victory garden in the vacant half of the space that separated us. I was a small child and Bell was my major hero.

When I was a student at Baylor (1954-58), I was delighted that Bell came speak on campus, but quite surprised by his interpretation of the miracle of the feeding of the 5,000. He dismissed the conventional view that Jesus himself multiplied the child’s five barley loaves and two fish to enough barley loaves and fish to feed the five thousand people.

Many in that crowd would never have left home without stashing a bit to eat in a shirt or bag, Bell noted, but no one would dare to eat in front of those who might not have brought anything, lest they be asked to share. According to Charles R. Bell, a far bigger miracle than the mere trickery of creating more loaves and more fish was the miracle of the hearts of the stingy changed when Jesus put at center stage the generosity of the child.

Too often we depend on the millionaires and other rich people to have enough to “accomplish abundantly,” but collectively a few poor people can make a huge difference when their hearts are changed. Witness the first eleven disciples.




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Thursday, July 2, 2009

Sunday, July 19, 2009. The Seventh Sunday after Pentecost

© 2009 by Louie Crew


Today’s Lections

The Collect

Almighty God, the fountain of all wisdom, you know our necessities before we ask and our ignorance in asking: Have compassion on our weakness, and mercifully give us those things which for our unworthiness we dare not, and for our blindness we cannot ask; through the worthiness of your Son Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen..


This collect manifests humility in spades: 'We are ignorant.' 'We are weak.' 'We are unworthy.' 'We are blind.' Whew!

Are we really?

Is that the self-understanding of someone who attends closely to Jesus?: “I have not called your slaves (or servants), but friends.”

Do you want to be friends with someone who expects your default approach to be “I am ignorant. I am weak. I am unworthy. I am blind”?

Is that how you expect your friends to approach you?

Some prefer to be dummies before God. It’s much easier to put the onus on God to make all things right rather than take responsibility for making them right ourselves.

I love the sonorous language of the collect. At 72 I am weary enough to enjoy retirement from many of the challenges that used to engage me. As a gay person of my generation, I know too much about humility. The word comes from humus, ‘dirt’. Thousands in the church have told the world that I am ‘low down, dirty, despised, queer, faggot‘….that my marriage is not to be blessed, that folks like me should never be consecrated as bishop….

On this Sunday, I shall privately substitute my own collect:

Jesus, gentle brother, wise and compassionate, thank you for being our friend. Help us as we struggle to discern what the world needs. We pledge to adjust our own needs to accommodate the needs of others, near and far, in your name, God’s name, and the Holy Spirit’s name. AMEN


2 Samuel 7:1-14a

I spend a lot of time visiting churches, all over the country, but especially in my diocese. See God’s Real Estate in the Diocese of Newark. Many of these were grand when built, and most reflect the builders’ expectations the kind of dwelling that they thought God might like to live in, given what they could afford. The wealthier often built versions of their own homes. After all, most of the Tiffany glass for homes as well a churches was made in Newark, and Tiffany built its manager a home, fitted with fine glass, two blocks from where my husband I lived when we first moved to New Jersey. The 19th-century factory looked much like the dirty old churches built in that period until recently when a developer bought it and made it into condominium, with steep stairwells and expensive price tags.

One or two generations after building God a house, the congregation often finds it difficult to keep it fit for God to live there. The slate roof is expensive to repair, and few sweeps are around to clean the chimneys or the belfries. Rusted wire often covers the glass and statuary to protect from vandals and vermin. The place is too cold or too hot much of the year. The toilets often are not accessible to those with special needs, and the plumbing often looks like it came from a junk yard. Still, the costs of upkeep stretch the parish budget so that mission to the world outside the church is dramatically reduced -- perhaps grocery bags for the poor who arrive before the daily ration runs out, and some money to the rector’s discretionary fund for the hard core cases.

Small wonder that Samuel hears God saying that God got along well enough in tents for generations, thank you very much. David’s new prosperity is not reason enough to put the God into fancy digs. Besides, David’s character is suspect, and God prefers to have any fancy house for himself to be built by David’s son Solomon. So there!

Samuel is of course more diplomatic in telling David than I am. He attributes all of David’s military success to God. I personally doubt that God is in the business of killing our enemies, nor does God want us to kill them either. But monarchs are powerful, and Samuel understands how to survive.

One of the advantages of many voluntary societies within the church is that we don’t have to be significantly in the real estate business. We can pitch our “tents” where anyone will have us, and pay rent when required. O to be sure, when Integrity/New York City died in one of its recent incarnations, the convener at that time, a lawyer, gave much effort to the legal desertification required of the state, and he had to find an appropriate home for a treasure trove of vestments which some of the most distinguished vestment makers in The Episcopal Church had made for the chapter; but that was done fairly painlessly. Within four or five years, younger lgbt Episcopalians in New York City discovered that they needed to connect and applied for certification from the national board, and meeting strict requirements, were certified and are now meeting and thriving.

Parishes desperately need to be like Gideon’s scouts, and like God in this reading, lean and able to move quickly to new exigencies.

And try selling your notion that decrepit and dirty old buildings are “God’s houses.” You won't attract many of those who haven’t darkened your doors yet.

Psalm 89:20-37

Those who win the battles get to write the history of them. This psalm is propaganda. I will stay quiet in my pew when the congregation recites it.

Some dictators require everyone to display their picture in their homes. David, as the best known of the psalmists, managed to get this psalm into the Book of Common Prayer of his day so that anyone challenging his authority would be warned that God is own David’s side.

This dark side of David is familiar. After he had wronged Bathsheba, he sent her husband Uriah to the front lines so that he would have the best chance of being knocked off, as he was, and then in Psalm 51 David has the audacity to pray to God, “Against you and you only have I sinned”! What chutzpah! Ask Uriah's survivors.

Be very careful if your Confessor gives as your penance the recitation of the 51st Psalm. Don't apologize just to God; go and make things right with the one you have wronged.



Ephesians 2:11-22

Compare:

Remember that at one time you lgbts were called ‘Sodomites,’ ‘defilers,’ arsenokoitai (‘temple prostitutes‘); ‘unnatural….’ by those who are called heterosexuals. Remember that you were at that time without Christ, being aliens from the commonwealth of Christianity, and strangers to the new covenant of love, having no hope and without God in the world. But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ. For he is our peace; in his flesh he has made both straights and lgbts into one and has broken down the dividing wall, that is, the hostility between us. He has abolished the law with its commandments and ordinances, that he might create in himself one new humanity in place of the two, thus making peace, and might reconcile both groups to God in one body through the cross, thus putting to death that hostility through it.


The entire history of Christianity is marked by its further extension, one by one, to groups previously excluded.



Mark 6:30-34, 53-56

When we make the Episcopal Church safe for sinners, we too will experience crowds like those Jesus drew everywhere he went in Mark’s story.

Self-righteousness is a paltry substitute for the loving, life-giving presence of Christ in our lives.





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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Sunday, July 12, 2009. Sixth Sunday after Pentecost

© 2009 by Louie Crew


Today’s Lections

The Collect

O Lord, mercifully receive the prayers of your people who call upon you, and grant that they may know and understand what things they ought to do, and also may have grace and power faithfully to accomplish them; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.
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2 Samuel 6:1-5, 12b-19

What an extraordinary liturgy for Ordinary Time. The most far-out dean of a cathedral of TEC would hardly risk the dances here, much less the sacrifice of live animals. This combines the pageantry of a bullfight with the intrigue of an enemy peeking out of her window, with food typical at many parish suppers, “a cake of bread, a portion of meat, and a cake of raisins.”

We feasted on finger food at the end of the recent 20th anniversary of the Oasis, an official ministry of the Diocese of Newark with lgbt folks; and to begin the liturgy, the congregation walked quietly two long blocks down Washington Street, where we lined up behind a buff bag-piper. The bishop said some prayers and the bag-piper, with grand posture, heralded us back the route to the church.

The street was busy with lots of folks celebrating the first bright warm day of the year, watching us intently. I told Christine Spong, walking next to me, that I should have worn a bright dress so the on-lookers would have had a better idea of what kind of Christians we are, but later the rector told that a woman on the street had seen the rainbow flag hanging in the entrance od the church and had asked, half in unbelief, “Does that mean what I think it means?” He told her ‘yes’ and invited her to join us.

For the moment, forget Michal glaring out the window at our extravagant celebrations. She may scorn, but the God of all universes has invited us to dance and to feast.

Psalm 24

Lift up your heads, O gates;
lift them high, O everlasting doors;


As early as 8 or 9 I wondered how gates could have heads. Were the heads sculpture on top of high doors? But why were the doors above the gates?

As an old man fully aware of metaphor, I still have trouble distinguishing the ‘vehicle' from the ‘field’ in this phrase, used twice in the psalm, as pomp and as prelude to God’s entrance. Small matter my confusion: I like the wording. I am a member of a “generation of those who seek him.”

The psalm heralds access to God. God will bless

Those who have clean hands and a pure heart, *
who have not pledged themselves to falsehood,
nor sworn by what is a fraud.


I rejoice that later Jesus came to make hearts pure enough so that my access does not depend on my righteousness, but Jesus’. Ir is of no consequence if I fail to make the grade: Jesus makes it for me.

I am intrigued by the psalmist’s geological assumptions manifested in verse 2:

For it is he who founded [the earth] upon the seas *
and made it firm upon the rivers of the deep.


According to this wording, the earth is on top of seas, firm upon the rivers of the ocean.

How would we describe the world and its relation to water in a psalm sensitive to global warming?

For it is he who surrounded the land with waters*
and gave us the responsibility for not making ice to melt and flood the earth(?)


That does not work for me, because the new subject is too strong and distracts from the main subject. How would you rewrite the verse to reflect modern perceptions?

Ephesians 1:3-14

My aunt lost two children in childbirth. I was 6 or 7 when she lost the second. She had come to our home in Anniston because she could not get good medical care in the poor county where she lived. Yet the doctors could not save the second child any more than they could the first. Never had I heard fervent wailing like my aunt‘s as she lay in he guestroom at the front of our house. She wailed hour upon hour.

When I was 10, I was visiting my aunt out in the country, and she and my uncle took me with them to the state adoption agency in Montgomery to receive a lovely little girl, just six months old. I waited in the car as they went inside. As I was an only child, it felt like I was getting a little sister. No one could ever smile any wider than they did as they showed Sally to me. When we got back to their home, it seemed everyone in the small country town had bought Sally a dress or a toy.

Years later, when Sally and I were both long grown, my mother, in one of her less thoughtful moods, was angry about a family decision and said, “I don’t see why your grandmother is giving that (I don’t even remember what ’that’ was) to Sally rather than to you. After all, you are blood kin, and Sally is kin to her only by adoption?!”

Remembering the glow in the eyes of my aunt and uncle years earlier, I said, “Mother, you and I are children of God only by adoption. Doesn’t that count? Are we not heirs equal to God‘s blood relations?”

When General Convention in 1976 affirmed that “homosexual persons are ‘children of God’ and entitled to the full love, care and pastoral concern of the church,” I assumed that the battle was over. What other credentials does one need in the Church besides being God’s child?

But the church has steadily backed off from giving us the full love, care and pastoral concern. When Paul Moore, Bishop of New York, ordained lesbian Ellen Barrett to the priesthood in January 1977, many in the church went ballistic. In 1979 General Convention said that sexuality was appropriate for priests only in heterosexual marriages. 'It's okay to be a song bird,' they said, 'but don't you dare sing.'

Any priest openly in a committed same-sex relationship was virtually unemployable, and in the mid-1990s bishops brought to trial for heresy the Rt. Rev. Walter Righter, then assisting bishop in Newark, for ordaining an out gay man in a committed relationship….

One evening in anguish I asked my friend, the Rev. Carlisle Ramacharan, “How can they call us ‘children of God’ and treat us so abominably?”

“Easy,” he replied. When India outlawed calling people ‘Dalits’ or ‘untouchables,’ do you know what they were then called?

“No. What?” I replied.

“Children of God,” he said, smiling, as in “God love them; I don’t have to.”

In his letter to the Christians at Ephesus, Saint tells those outsiders, those gentiles, that they are not second class, that God had a plan for us even before God made the world: “He destined us for adoption as his children through Jesus Christ, according to the good pleasure of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace that he freely bestowed on us in the Beloved. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace that he lavished on us.”

Listen up, Church. Listen up lesbians and gays. On this Sunday General Convention will be half-way done. Some there will be saying, like my mother on one of her worse days, “I don’t see why we should bless lgbt folk or consent to their consecration. After all, we have kept the faith. We have faithfully drunk Christ‘s blood. These nasty folks are God’s only by adoption. Let God love them. We don’t have to.”

God does love us fully and unconditionally.

Listen up all those other peeking out the window wondering whether God could possibly love you: yes God does. God knows everything about you and still fully and unconditionally loves you.

Mark 6:14-29

Note the lavish details of the feast, the sensual details of the dancing. Note the grandiosity of power: “And he solemnly swore to her, ‘Whatever you ask me, I will give you, even half of my kingdom.’"

Then the silver platter. Surely it was stamped "Sterling."

We cannot control the limits of those who will to do us harm. We rejoice to have much better news.






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